Probably I cannot blame anybody for this since this is one thing happens after civil war. In genocide, people were forced to kill their friends. Good guy wouldn't live long. There was a word created by those crazy murderers called "Svai Ris Kun" which means to criticize yourself. Sometime it goes beyond that. Intellectual were considered enemy. Those who were honest were murdered and those who hid their identity might also be dead-because of their friends... reporting them.
Trust began to fade. Doubt took over people since.
I witness myself that they couldn't easily restore their original mind even it has been already 35 years already. They do not feel secured with people. They do not generally try to be generous. This trauma is not easily healed. It has been embedded in their mind.
Being a healthcare provider and a young human, I try to be as humane as possible. I help a lot of people without me getting any returns. Yes, I don't have salary. But that doesn't stop me from trying my best to give them the best I could. I just want to help.
Unfortunately, the fragment still exists especially among older Cambodians. However, I am very confident that in the near future, trust will regain its power back and the perfect fantasy people are dreaming of will be made real.
